…mainly because of poor sleep, but there are other factors. I’m just going to do a little cause-effect-affinity hunting thinking here. I’m a bit depressed because I’m alone and tired. My thoughts have been largely negative, but the re-definition I’m using is that this is my opportunities to practice my solidness in having positive thoughts when my condition is sub-optimal. As well as staying focused when I’m a bit anxious. Studying Dao this morning helped me. The tiredness is the effect, the cause is poor sleep. The conditions (affinity – aka the conditions that turn a cause into an effect) for my poor sleep were: improper sleeping temperature, and going to bed too late. I don’t know how to properly regulate my sleep temperature, in fact I’m really confused about my temperature. The effect was that I was sweating, but my upper body felt cold. The cause was my internal body temperature, and the affinity was my blanketing and sleeping pod. The effect was that I woke up early in the morning and couldn’t get back to deep sleep – I missed out on REM cycles because of it. The affinity for that is also maybe that went to bed too late.
It seems I developed attachment to being well-rested and energetic. While it is noble to aim at being in those vital states, it is highly likely that I will not always be in those states, so it is natural to be tired and in sub-optimal state.
Commitment, Wisdom, Eudaimonia
